I Am A Mother and I Am Proud!

I feel like writing today though I have no idea on what to write about.

Alright, lets start with this morning. I brought my daughter (DD) to clinic this morning because her right eyelid is red and looks sore. We suspected stye or in Bruneian called it pitutan. However, its just so weird that DD seems not to bother about it. It doesn't look itchy. She doesn't scratch which amazes us, as scratching is her 'sport'. DD scratches all the time, especially when she's annoyed, shy, angry, disagree etc. Oh, and there's no discharge from DD's right eye.

We decided to seek advice from the doctor. It turned out to be chalazion. Doctor said its harmless and that washed all my worries away. Alhamdulillah.

To put chalazion in non-medical, simple-mother-term, it is like pimple. It forms when pores can't secret the excess oil. The oil accumulates and form cyst, just like pimple. That differentiate between chalazion and stye. While stye occurs due to infection in hair follicles (eyelashes) and it caused itchiness and irritation.

I am not posting any pictures here as I can't stand looking at pictures of eyes having cyst or stye. Just google for more information.

The past few weeks had tested my patient. A lot. DD was down with flu. She refused to let go of my boobs at night. I had backache.  These really put me down. It makes me tired. I am constantly thought of the worst too, I am worried all the time and at time I can over-think things. I am not saying that we shouldn't look at small things but education matters here. Every time DD got sick, I would brought her to clinic only to learn that as a mother I should equip myself with better knowledge on children's common illnesses along with being patient and positivity.

Alhamdulillah, I am grateful that I am not a perfect mother because every second, Allah gives me opportunity to learn more just so I can improve myself. His knowledge is vast, endless. He tested me and at the same time He opens my eyes/ heart to see more in life. 

May Allah blessed my family and protect us from any harms. Amin ya rabb.

Till then,

Aa